August 18, 2013

Curiosity vs Fear

Lately, my news feed is filled with sentiments on "The Conjuring" or "The Purge." I dislike horror movies. I try to stay away from it as much as I can, since I get terrified and jumpy easily. In fact, I don't watch movies that have any hint of horror or psycho-thriller scenes - explains why I haven't watched Human Centipede, Silence of the Lambs, The Grudge, The Ring, Child's Play, etc.

I remember watching Kakaba-kaba (a local horror tv series) back in grade school; it was shown that tasty burger patties were made of humans - I didn't eat burgers for 2 years! Also, back in High School, I was forced to enter a horror house in Star City; I got so scared that I just sat in a fetal position - refused to move until one of the staff escorted me out. HAHAHAHAHAHA - of course I'm a bit braver now, but still, the fear is still there.

Sometimes, I can take horror movies during the film showing, albeit with a bit of shying away from the screen, screaming, or holding back tears. HAHAHA. What I cannot stomach is how it toys with my mind long after the film is finished - when I'm alone in the house, while taking a bath, while I'm brushing my hair in front of the mirror, while walking in a dark alley, when I shut my eyes off, or even when I just look at a blank space. It's making me paranoid.

It was making me very paranoid and jumpy that I stopped watching horror movies altogether.

Unfortunately for me, most of my friends enjoy watching horror/gory/or psychological thriller films. Hence, the discussion can inevitably lead to such. Of course, I do not contribute anything (unless I've already read the story online - I do that to make sure I can at least carry a conversation), but I still listen intently so as to (1) get a grasp of the story and the emotions it harbors and (2) keep mental reference in case I need to use the knowledge in the future. The scarier it sound, the more conviction I have in avoiding the film.

So far, that strategy has worked fine. However, recently, I'm getting very very very very curious in horror movies, especially the classics. I was actually thinking of hypnotizing myself into believing that I'm not scared of horror movies- but of course I don't know hot to do that. HAHAHA

I tried Googling for answers:

There have been a few cases where people have had such strong aversions to horror movies, in such a case, the only way that the psychologist found to treat the case was to expose the woman to over fifty hours of horror movies over a period of two weeks. She died of a heart attack two hours into the treatment (needs citation.)

Well, that wasn't very encouraging, was it? HAHAHA I was thinking of watching a horror movie once a week during daytime, but I'm worried that it might affect my productivity afterwards. And that is just not practical at all.

Now I'm back to that phase of I wanna watch it so bad to see what the fuss is all about, and how brilliant the film might be, but I don't want to watch it, because that will not give me peace of mind for at least a week or two - the scary scenes will just play over and over again in my brain.

Curiosity vs fear, I wonder which will win in the next few days.

I don't know. What do you think? Did you ever experience a similar fear? And how did you address it?


  1. A friend of mine was into this hype about The Conjuring that she asked me to watch it on her birthday. I said NOOO! I don't want to have nightmares. I'm not exactly the takot type but I find the hype annoying. Maybe in the next month I'll watch it na. So anyway, this is just a suggestion you may consider to overcome your fear. Try to imagine that it is super scary that you just might end up in that fetal position of yours again. With that in mind, watch it and who knows, it won't be as scary as you thought. You might even be disappointed because it wasn't that scary naman pala. But mind you, don't take my word for it. Proceed with caution. *wink*

    1. Hi Amy! thanks for dropping by. I will consider your suggestions, but I've decided that I'm too scared to watch horror movies for now :) akala ko siguro kaya ko na nung sinulat ko to, but yeah, just browsing through scary photos ay enough na para matakot ako, baka umiyak ako non stop kapag movie. HAHAHAHA

  2. Hahaha. I've barely seen this side of yours but let me tell you my own experience. Ever since I've watched Child's Play during my 3rd grade, it changed my life. Until now I harbor strong fear with ventriloquism, dolls, and such. Believe me, it will take me forever to struggle because I always challenge myself to stare with my doll for 5 seconds but I couldn't even last for at least 2 seconds. Hahaha! And the funny idea that whenever I share this to other, I fear that they might hear me talking about them and they will secretly stalk me afterwards for doing so!

    As to your concern whether it's fear or curiosity, I suggest you start from least scary movies, stick with your references. If majority says, the horror movie is too corny, challenge yourself, the movie itself is still classified horror. the second option I can recommend you is the one I adopted from my friend. If you feel intensely paranoid and bothered after watching a single horror movie, watch another set that would divert your attention, like a funny ones, or your favorite ones.

    Just do not hop the idea of watching alone. HAHAHA. I don't think I can handle that. That's one too, you may watch with your closest friends and family. Helloooo I remember the whole class back the nwatching the Shutter movie in your sala pa nga. HAHAHAAHA. You remember that? That made me scared for at least a month.

    Ooops. I got carried away, good luck Let!

    1. HAHAHHAHAHAH mendy, yes Natre! Until now, that movie still haunts me. I was a lot braver then - or at least pretending to be brave, HAHAHA. Oh yeah, I remember you got locked in our CR. I miss those days!

      Yes, I am proud to say that I wasn't a bit scared with The Strangers (yung MMFF movie ni enrique gil and julia montes), but I think no one would be proud of me for not being scared by that movie. HAHAHAHA

      You guys sleepover at my place again! Please? HAHAHAHA


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