When climbing, the higher you go, the thinner the air, the harsher the weather, the harder it is to sleep, the more tired you become. This is true in climbing both mountains and corporate ladders.
I've improved my spot in Maslow's hierarchy of needs from last year's, but I did not expect the jump to be this disorienting. Some nights I feel like curling into a cheeseball and wrapping myself in molo, or you know, wish for a holiday the next day, and the day after that, and so on :P
Some nights I feel like I can take on the world, planning to dress my most bad ass suit the next day and
slap punch every challenges with my mature decision making. Then the next day comes, and I drown in a sea of other people's priorities!
The hardest part of it all is being responsible for others. I'm quite good at looking after myself, but not yet at carrying the weight of others. I have a lot to learn in this regard and I'm worried at what the costs of my learning will be - I hope the cost will not be myself.
"You suffer in silence, because you are silent."
These tough times though, I've been very lucky to have special people around me to talk with and help me through it. Thank you. (Hi, Lui! I think you have no idea how much I appreciate your support, and I want you to know that I am very grateful of you.)
After all, I do not have to climb alone. Isn't the summit best shared with others?
Patience and grit, Arlet. Please.
The universe is still in a conspiracy to make you a better person.